The Hidden Answer. Where?!

Generally speaking, I don't like postmodernism. More, I hate it sometimes and because of its omnipresence I've burst into tears at times. But the term which doesn't want to be put into the stiff frame of definition is something that I'm fascinated with, too. Mainly because it likes to question every single thing.
Even science. How dare they?! The only one thing which is certain?! Or, its certainly certain at least in natural sciences. Sometimes real breakthroughs in science have shown us how our methodology is wrong. How limited we are. But we haven't surrendered. And willing to know more, we've cut science into small pieces, tiny disciplines what leads to quasi-integrated knowledge in which we've obtained 'some crucial findings.' Taking philosophical questions - or the question of God, specifically - into consideration, we would be more and more confused.
Maybe that's why Mr. Postmodernism's turned to culture. Culture which embraces all what we've created: literature, art, theatre, film, social rules and economies, music, religious systems, philosophies and science as well, but only as one of many ingredients of it. And that is the good way. Especially deliberating on the existence of God (let's suppose it's possible to answer...).
Nevertheless, a problem occurs. Instead coming closer to the answer, it seems we are going far, far away from it. The outcome is similar to the scientific approach one. Science's created structurally detailed disciplines. Culture methodology creates systematically complex areas of questions and answers. As a result, we end up like the approach we'd rejected.
But I am stubborn and I will try to answer the question using culture methodology. Its name is not even needed - it's simply thinking, some kind of free philosophy, often without Ordnung (because that's how life looks like), like Dostoyevsky reflections, like the quote from Heidegger that even "scientific philosophy is too academic."
So, let's just listen, read, watch, feel. And think.

The half-hearted one has started enthusiastically. On worms and exhibitionism

Having been half-hearted about blogging, what's more - even reading blogs in which people tend to behave like exhibitionists, I could hardly imagine that I would ever blog. Because of several reasons I've changed my mind and I'm really excited about starting off my own blog.
Firstly, I realised how ignorant and stupid I really am. I need others' experience, thoughts and knowledge to be, at least, less stupid.
Secondly, I realised it's worth being more open to people. Otherwise one buries his reflections and ideas with his body and all this stuff is eaten by vermis. I don't want to feed only animals with such nutricious food.
Thirdly, I realised I must, and want to, be more active. And that includes being a little exhibitionist.
Bearing that in mind I would like to share with you my thoughts about the fundamental questions concerning the evil, the human, the 'higher power' and the fate, suffering, knowledge, culture - generally the problem of God. I want to look for the answers using the 'culture methodology,' I will explain this later. I hope you would like to join the dialogue by giving your own ideas, expressing your points of view, or proposing some books to read, films to watch, or even lives to live. Trying to be active, open and humble, I look forward to the project with you. Enthusiastically.